at this point im half sleeping packing and blogging at the same time. I should finish up packing by morn, as the van that we loaned are coming after work around 5 so iguess its impossible to be still packing tomorrow but i think i need to talk with em parents so that they'll come a bit later cause from the looks of it i dont really see any big difference in the room from the start. Its still full of..rubbish.
anyway i seriously need to learn on how to live, is there any guide book on living for the dummies? Im doing the second biggest mistake in my life again, i have no idea when will i learn and see things clearly and able to think clearly. God, im so dumb. Beyond dumb i think. Its the second big mistake now. I just hope there wont be any third and forth and the rest. Amin.
and i should settle my issues with my inner self and be at peace or something. Its the soul that making me this way. I just cant seem to put myself at ease and enjoy life as how it is and stop being so unsatisfied and... Okay basicly i need to chill now and just set my mind on things and just try not to change my mind every 2 seconds.
I change my mind so very easily. One moment i was bitching and cursing, the second i was loving it to the point of regreting for what ive done. I have a sick mind. Yes. I need help.
Jiwa kacau is the word for it.
I guess i need to muhasabah diri and try to get back to Him. I admit i havent been good lately and that just might be the reason to my disturbed soul.
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