suffocate

please don't act you all cared when you're the ones who made these mess.

the fact that you didn't do any of these to the elders kills me. why, why am i the only one? and yes, yes i'm sick, i'm sick of doing these three different fucking long distance rides. but i'm still doing it just because i wanted to prove something. to prove i do not know what either. to prove that you're making me do all these stupid shit.

i was doing perfectly fine ON MY OWN until you got involved.

you should have just let it be for awhile instead of going all paranoid and freaking out and arrange things that should have not in the first place. worrying what others might say and how people might see you, your appearances, people's expectations rather than your own yours truly.

seriously i do not need all these. and here you are thinking it's for the best. but i guess you're not listening are you.

and now only you're starting to get worried?
too late, you're wasting your time.

thanks to you, i might be bitter for god knows how long. as you can see, it's a complete mess.
cheers to that.